you loved crazy incongruent lines such as
superior toothbrush
and others i now cannot remember
even your email address was modeled after
what exited a cow's oral and anal orifice
a moo, methane
moothane now
and how life isn't Chrispy anymore when
you told me how he killed himself

i would pull you back to those days
where we were too young to have been worn out
i miss those lazy days
we'd meet once every school term was over
meaning we met only four times a year perhaps a bit more when you served out
your two and a half years

how i had a uti when i first met you and couldnt stop
popping out of the ladies every twenty minutes
i wasnt garry
i wasnt daniel to you
but we're close enough to hurt

even after three years of absence and im not trying now am i

how did you dissipate as a friend into a stranger

moving away
getting married


must have wore you out along the way
because you are now a husband
you will go on to be a father
a grandfather
an uncle
and i have faded back into a stranger

without even having realised when