i let you do this
dissect me into a million pieces
shatter me into pointillism
i let you tell me
how i can be the way you want me
i let you know that is going to be okay
i let you

speak of my intensity
and of my fire I never knew existed and
which i will later let you put out

i let you slip through the door
that remains unlocked, and open
to wolves and vultures

so you can come back anytime you feel like it

i let you scrutinise my intelligence
my works
my age

so you can come back when i am beautiful enough

i let you do all that








because
i can never
do that to you